Thursday , 21 Feb O8 .

6.45am

today started out like Fuck. when i woke up , i felt really weak ,

just like a Shyto. Dad was giving me those cold-eyed stares and

Mummy was lecturing again before i went off for sch. kimekk !

dari dapur pun bole terpekik-pekau sak smp ke bawa pun

bole dgr. want give wake up call to the whole 182 huh !

TODAY SUCKS.

7.31am

walking up the flights of stairs were extra tiring than usual today.

& sigh ~ going to sch was such a huge mistake. Hotstuff wasnt there at

the intc. as expected , he's not coming to sch - my instincts were

veryyy right. morning assembly was such a disappointment too.

Afah wasnt at her usual spot , and i guess she mustve been

too tired due to the T&T training she went ytd. just by looking at her

empty seat could make me sigh again. the two people that i

depended on to help me de-stress wasnt here.

TODAY SUCKS.

7.48am

"u want me to conduct CME at the assembly area ? u want everybody

to know that 3E5 are ppl who nvr bring their work to sch ? u all want to

become famous and popular is it ?"

hoho ! how lame can this teacher be ? its now CME period , and Ms Ng is teaching us about respect. more than half the class didnt bring their

file. & now she is nagging.

eh tolong la ! ive had enough of naggings at home la ey !

TODAY SUCKS.

8am

now Ms Ng is asking us to participate in some dumb

activity - close our eyes and do a little self-reflection

on a particular incident that happened last wk where

we had regretted our actions.

even without closing my eyes , moments of Saturday

night kept appearing. the voices of my siblings , the hurt

faces of my parents , the tears of my mother ..... uh oh ,

why is my vision suddenly blurry ? plop ! a big fat tear

rolled down my cheeks. shit ! did Diana A and Brenda

noticed it ? phew ! they didnt , i think so.

TODAY SUCKS.

8.44am

"alright , would you like to get back ur test paper ?"

cher , can i say NO ?

i got 2/12 for my previous Geog test.

hopefully there is improvement this time.

ok wait , Ms Koh is calling my name.

yesssaarrrrrrrrrrr ! i got 7/13 la se ! 4 marks improvement ! woooo ~

but still combining the 1st test and this 2nd one , it only adds up to

9/25 - meaning i failed for Geography CA1 by 3.5 marks.

TODAY SUCKS.

9.24am

local winds ? winds on a small scale ? regional wings ?

what kind of weird titles are those ?

Geography may be interesting. but since today is such

a sucky day , ive lost concentration for it.

why is my head aching so much anyway ?

to add on to it , im darn hungryyyy.

TODAY SUCKS.

12.10am

well honestly , i was really hoping that Hotstuff might show up

during recess (deliberately late for sch). but nopenope , he

wasnt there. sighhh ~ the mee bandung wasnt nice at all.

& the chicken costs me 80cents , when its only the size of my

middle finger. such a waste of MY $2 siaaal !

TODAY SUCKS.

1.26am

Mrs Chan , can i cry ?

i'm sorry Fidah , ive failed my Maths CT. BADLY.

sorry to have wasted your time to teach me all this while

when i cant even get a pass. am i born to be that Stupid ?

oh fuck it ! and why must this Chan call me out to do qns

when im in this kind of state ? huh Q9 , ex 6A ? i didnt even knw

there was hmwk. & why isnt the headache going away ?

TODAY SUCKS.

why is it tht i felt so lifeless today when u werent there ?

i miss seeing your face , bby.

do come sch tmr , will you ?