Is love worth waiting for?
You may ask, whats with the subject? But dont expect an answer so soon cause
i myself dont know. It just came into my mind after having to think about the
people around me and the situation they are in. Its such a pity to see such tight
bonds between two friends loosened up in the end. To those experiencing that
now, im truly sorry for your loss. But maybe its just not meant to happen yet.
Anne has been frequently walking down her memory lane with (insert name)
since the past months while Syaee was also pulled back to her past again and
now working her way through together with (insert name). Maybe her wait
was finally worth waiting for but then again, maybe not.

Hopefully things will work out best for my friends so that i can be happy for
them as well. There was also a time when i could never felt happier. It was the
day when (insert name) and I spent time and walked home together after a
good long year of separation. Its about 2 years now and we were both
attached then. Friends said our feelings were mutual but we were then tied
down to our partners so there was nothing we could do. When i got to know he
was having major problems with his girl, i felt my hopes rising up. And i
thought that maybe my wait was finally over but then again, maybe not.

But now, im a free-flying kite in the sky. No longer tied to a ball of string held
by some guy. I once told my then boyfriend, "If you really love a girl, you wont
make her wait no matter how bad the situation you are in". He said he
understood my decision but the next day, he humiliated me in his Friendster
profile and striked me off his friends list. I dont see the need of you doing all
that if you were to really understand. Guess i didnt realise you were that petty
huh? I wanted to end this in a good manner but you made things difficult. Well,
two can play the game. I bet you will find someone new soon anyway,
considering how fast you replaced Yaya with me. Im sorry, i didnt mean to be
harsh but being attached with you just isnt as easy as i thought. Unlike
Fiefie, im not the kind who would wait obediently for every weekend to
come around since their boyfriend is locked up in the west area. But still,
things with her and Cloud dont always go so well either. So is love really
worth waiting for?

Well, single life aint easy for me either. Yes, it is more carefree and
independent but i'll just get bored and lonely as each day passes by. No
one to leash everything out to at night and talk to till the wee hours in the
morning. True, i've still got my guy-friends but it just doesnt feel the same.
Sometimes it gets so bad that i just have to break down thinking about the
happiness i once owned and what i had done to lose all that and gained such
loneliness. Im getting tired of always reassuring myself with "Life is great,
life is wonderful" everyday when most of time, it isnt. Unbelievably, i dont
shed a tear for heartbreaking, sad songs/movies now but instead for sweet
and romantic ones (HSM 3 is one good example).
Because why? Cause..
1) Im used to heartbreaks as ive been getting it all along. My heart feels numb
towards it now.
2) I know i wont get to expreience that kind of true love displayed on-screen.

But hey, maybe i will. Only not until the many many long years to come. Luckily
there is school and studies to distract me from all this. Cause even though i
sucks much in my studies, at least there is something else for me to focus on
besides my screwed-up lonely love life.

Thanks for the shopping trip yesterday, my bitch!

"Diy shopped, Syaee dropped!" LOL! Too bad we couldnt find

that floral blouse i badly wanted huh? Never mind, Arab

Street ah next month! :D

Ahaaa, sanggup eh dia. Love you la Syairah Hasri!

And a promise is still a promise okay ;D

Oh anyway, HAPPY DEEPAVALI! (:

& HSM 3 AGAIN with Afifah, Anne & friends tomorrow !

HSM 3 was awesome! Troy and Gabriella (Zac Efron &

Vannessa Hudgens in reality) looked so perfectly

sweet together. Im so jealous! I wish i could be

that perfect with someone. Hmm, just a wish.

We were lucky though there

were still available seats to accomodate us four

even though we came really at the last minute.

I've treated Azura Yusof to this movie so that means

i dont owe her any birthday gift no more! Heheh.

After the movie, we went to follow the birthday girl

to meet her Hubby (eeyerr, haha). Then since it was

already late by that time, i followed her back to her

crib and decided to spent the night there. So here i

am blogging using her lappy toppy while she

is busy snoring away on her bed! Hehe.

& oh yaaaa! The documentary @ the Omni Max

Theatre was way cool! Thank you Ms Koh for

bringing us there to exprience it. That was my

first! Weee watched two movies today and now

my eyes are hurting. Grrr i guess i gotta rest them

now before i start squinting them badly. So

tooodles (oh dont i sound like Sharpay? ;D)

everyone! Goodnight. Sweeet dreams!

Today marks the last day of school for most of you.

Lucky for you people. The sec 3E students however still

have their extra classes to attend every day. It is said

to prepare us for our O Level next year. We will follow

the normal lessons in our timetable for the next 2 weeks to

come. Unlike you guys, our holidays will only start in

the mid-November. Pathetic, i know. But what to do, its

already a blessing for me to be promoted to sec 4E so

i have no choice but to endure. I will also have to

sit for a paper on the 7 Nov to prove the teachers that

i am worthy of being promoted so that they will

keep me in the Express stream. So you see how

important school still is for the sec 3 students? While

the lower sec students are partying away, we have

to come back to school everyday and work our ass

off to finish the syllabus by the end of the year. And

as for me, i have to work extra harder to be of the

same standard as my other classmates. I guess that

means no work for me during the holidays, no

frequent updates in friendster/msn (blog excluded),

no time (and money either) to think about tinting

my hair and no more late night outs at town. Wait,

lemme take back my last statement or else i'd be

rotting in Bukit Batok every weeknights -.-

I'm missing Fiefie, Oyin and Atroy badly. And

oh not forgetting my Big brother too! Eh boncit (Fie

takmo terasa ehhh) if by any chance you are

reading this, contact me asap! Dgr-dgr hp

hilang tak tau nak kasi tau apee!

HAPPY SCHOOL HOLIDAYS! (for most)
& HSM 3 Senior Year with Zura and Adah tomorrow :D

--- With Sec 3 Express mates (071008) ---

--- With lepak mates (151008) ---

--- With ex-Yuhua Primary girls (181008) ---

Okay these are all that i have for now. Hope you enjoyed browsing through! Goodbyeee! *And all the best for all my seniors sitting for O's right now (:

I enjoyed my Saturday with the girls, even though

its not well planned and underpopulated. Conflicts

happened but i had fun still!

Just what is not fun now, is that i

have to wait for the photos again from

Shafiqah and Faila -.-

Will be back soon with a proper update

and pictures too! Goodnight everyone (:

Im tired, im bored

and im waiting for my

Hari Raya pictures from

Alif (still !) and Syaee.

Im gonna make sure i'll bring

my own camera next

time. Heheh, bastarddd.

• Went down to Swiss Cottage Sec yesterday to support our school in a Malay Arts Poetry competition. Nazirul & Uni was also there to perform for us all. They sang the song Suasana Hari Raya and did BBSS real proud. Weeee! To watch their performance, click the link given in NIRA ANNE's blog (:
• Wednesday's Raya outing with my schoolmates + Zaidi was enjoyable. I fell sick halfway though. Was vomiting all around like one indecent chic in a baju kurung. Thank you friends for your concern and help in taking care of me! I love you all! Lucky thing i recovered fast :D
• I went to school for two days straight already! Hopefully those two Mrs and Ms are SATISFIED to finally get to see my face infront of their eyes (note the sarcasm)
• Hari Raya outing with primary schoolmates tomorrow! Hoping to enjoy myself with my Sasha and the girls (:

Ive seen for myself my SA2 results. Tsk,

how disappointing. I failed all my other subjects

except for English and Malay. Huhhh, wth? Why do i

feel as though i studied real hard but my results just

keep flopping? The criteria to be promoted to sec

4Express is to pass English and another TWO

subjects. And here i am, only passing Eng

and my Malay. Where is the another one subject i need to

pass to be promoted? Grrrr. I have this really bad feeling

that im not following the rest of my classmate's

footsteps to 4E5`09. But oh well, i'll just have to pray

for the best and hopes a miracle would happen during

the Promotion Day, this Wednesday.

• I'm still waiting for the damn HSA's letter of fine. For god's sake, whats taking them so long?
• Jalan Raya outing this Wednesday is still to be considered. Hafizzzz, im waiting for your msg! Syaeee, wait up for my msg! I'll text you once everything is confirmed!


• & Happy Birthday, Ezzah and Dirah Baby :D

Today is by far, the worst day of all the

great days i ever had. Slacked at 187 yesterday

and ton there for the night then at 2pm today,
headed down to West Mall to meet my dudes,

Afifah and Anne. They passed me my EOY results

which is very very disappointing, despite the fact
that i studied for it. Then we decided to help
Afifah tint her hair for her Hari Raya outing

with her primary schmates tomorrow. Bought

12% using my money then proceeded to 620.

I used some of it, only to realise that the smell

of it makes me wanna puke. Really, i swear!

Since its soooo smelly, there were much leftovers

and Afifah decided to try using it to style Anne's

hair. This is her reaction ..

Hahahaha. Lawa la tu mukanye, Niraaa !

Went for our smokebreak, then HSA came (wah damn!).
Took our particulars. So here i am waiting for their letter. Sasuay ahhhh, tsk. After that,Afah and Anne send me home, as usual. Thank you korang. Upon reaching home, raided my kitchen and realised there was nothing to eat. Tsk, then i was so bored with all these freaking cartoons on TV when i remembered something that was missing! I forgot to take Breaking Dawn from Anne before going home! How stupid of me siaaaa *slapping my face*

So now im going off to Anne's house to take the book from her. Goodbye everyone! And forgive my mood for today. & oh, Mrs Chan called Mummy earlier on. That brings my mood even more down la sial. Forcing me to come to school? Who does she think she is?

Today isnt such a great day compared

to yesterday (if you have read the post

below). I overslept and didnt

attend school cause its already 10.

Then when i was brushing

my teeth in the mirror, i saw this!

The swell in my left eye is so big

and it looks real disgusting.

And its really pain too! Its difficult

for me to open my left eye fully.

Grrrr, this sucks.

Wah check out my tagboard! This is so cool!

Our local band just rocked my tagboard! :D

My reply to EN-X band: HELLO! You're

much welcome. Okay, thanks for the url.

I'll be sure to check it out soon! You

guys are just the best! (:

This is the first time im

head over heels for a local band (besides

my 1 second crush on Force Vomit last Baybeats).

There must be something wrong with me man

for this sudden change of music taste :D

Afifah betted that it'll take me a century
to forget my Mr 'A' while Anne betted a day.
Hahaha, adorable ah korang! Hmm we'll
just see about that.

Okay people, my relatives are here for

Raya. Its not nice for me to be entertaining

this pc and not them. So, goodbye for now!

Do wait up for my next post :D

The only one photo of yesterday's Raya outing

i could get my hands on. Others are still in Alif's

camera, and im still waitingggggggg.

Anyway, today is such a great day. The greatest

day i ever had compared to my other great days!

The post-exam sculpture trip around town turned

out to be better than expected after we had the

breakfast break at MacDonald's. Also, a group of beautiful

'ang-moh' boys who were also on a school trip waved

goodbye to us, the 3E5 girls, when we were on our

way to the bus back to school :D

Thats great, isnt it? Just when we thought

gorgeous caucasians are arrogant...

The Nokia School Invasion Tour concert was no less

greater either! Thank you to Alvin, the lead singer

of EN-X, who made me so happy that i was screaming

my lungs out the whole time he was singing. Dont

accuse me yet of being too full of myself, i have

reliable witnesses okay! And he did it again in the next

song. Ohhhh mannnn! For once, i felt so special :D

Things got even better at home. I got 4 hours of

afternoon nap without any disturbance. And better

yet, i dreamt of Alvin! Oh yes, that Alvin i talked

about just seconds ago. Heee! But its too embarassing

to share that dream here though! Haha.

After a heavy dinner of KFC, mummy asked me out

to accompany her to buy a new phone for herself.

In the midst of all that, i also got a new phone for

myself. Not a much advanced phone but much better

than the previous Samsung i was holding on to :D

We reached home just on time for 'Dol dan Minah nak

kahwin' and '2x5 Dol' to start. So, all in all, dont you

agree with me that today (and yesterday too) was

just great? :D

Okay, forgive my tooo overexcited face -.-

But its finally over. Exams are finally OVER!

We're supposed to let our hair down and celebrate!

Heh, and cross our fingers for our results too,

i suppose. But lets not worry about that first cause

i think its still too early to talk about results. Heheh.

Will be looking forward to the jalan raya outing with

the 3Express peeps tomorrow. Even though Burhan and

Ipin not tagging along, im hoping to have an enjoyable

time with the rest (:

-------------------

Sometimes its just funny how we asked for the

break and still wants to linger on with the Ex. While

the Ex is trying their best to forget us, we just dont

want them to let go. Why is that so? And worse still, if

we've found someone new and still doesnt want to let

that Ex go. That hurts. For both the Ex and our current

boyfriend. *Serious thinking time.

Its kind of late but anyway,

RIP Mernel and Eddy.

And thank you to Syaee once again for

editting my background into a simpler one. ILY! (:

Syaee Here!

Hello Honeys!

Syaee here!

Diyana,I'm done with your blogskin.

Hope you love it,baby!

Just for you! (:

Alright everybody!

Good Night & Selamat Hari Raye! (:

Lastly,Diy I'm sorry to update as if like my blog &

If you want to delete this post go ahead!

I love you Diyy!

Much loves,

Syaee <3

Hello people! And Selamat Hari Raya friends!

Anyway welcome back Diy, haaaha! :D

How was exams? I bet its sucky just

like mine was. So far only Science

Paper 1 was tolerable and finishable (?).

Hahaha. This monday marks my last paper

which is Biology Paper 1. Then its WEEEEEE

ENJOOOOOOOOOOOOOOYMENT! :D

So after our paper, Anne and Afah accompanied

me to hunt for a prepaid SIM card.

I let them lead the way since i knew nothing

of prepaids. Heee, pampered bill brat laa kan.

We raided two 7 Eleven stores. The first

store made us wait for 3o mins when he finally

came out and said "girl, cannot ah". Selamba

siak tu Beng berbual. Where have your manners

gone to, Ah beng ah? Tskkk.

We then went to have our

breakfast @ a Indian Muslim eatery somewhere

near our school in Toh Tuck there. That shop ahhh,

haiya no comments la eh. Siul, peh laaa susah nak

fahamkan org tu apa kita nk order!

But Afifah recommends it you to guys

though. Rate it for yourself eh! Though

i dont know whats the name of the shop to

reccomend it to you guys :D

Okay, another news is... The day i bought a new

prepaid line is also the day my bill line is

activated again. Meaning, mummy had paid

all the overdued bills i owe Singtel. Aww thanks (:

So that also means im holding onto two numbers

now. But ive got no phone to use them for. Any

kind hearted soul willing to lend me their spare

ones till the end of November, till i get myself a

new one? Heee. Cause Nira ANNE's phone

that she borrowed me cant be used! Sighs,

just when i had my hopes high up :(

Goshhh ive been squinting my eyes for

the hundredth time already. I think my

eyes are in for some serious damage soon.

I spent my whole afternoon cooped up in my

bedroom, reading Eclipse that was just

passed on to me by Anne just now in

school. After a whole month of wait, i finally

got my hands on them! And among all three books

in the series that ive read, i really like Eclipse BEST!

I dont know what made Anne hold on to that

book for sooo long. The storyline is so exciting

and romantic, i just cant stop turning its

pages! Till i reached the very end, which

i just did an hour ago. And im telling you,

im sooo going to read it again later tonight!

Yes Anne, you can consider me a freak now :D

Hahahaaaaaaaaahaha.

I wanna change my blogskin soon.

Maybe on a fine day when ive

found some help la kay, cause im really

no expert in all these layouts, i tell you.

*I did whats best for us.

You dont have to change for the worst

just because of this. I love you,

i always do. But the situation we are in

just doesnt permit. Im sorry, boyfriend.

And friends, i might need some time to

heal. Please understand, thank you*

Okay then, i'll stop here now.

My eyes feel as if they are popping out soon.

Goonight beautiful peopleeeee :D