Is love worth waiting for?
You may ask, whats with the subject? But dont expect an answer so soon cause
i myself dont know. It just came into my mind after having to think about the
people around me and the situation they are in. Its such a pity to see such tight
bonds between two friends loosened up in the end. To those experiencing that
now, im truly sorry for your loss. But maybe its just not meant to happen yet.
Anne has been frequently walking down her memory lane with (insert name)
since the past months while Syaee was also pulled back to her past again and
now working her way through together with (insert name). Maybe her wait
was finally worth waiting for but then again, maybe not.

Hopefully things will work out best for my friends so that i can be happy for
them as well. There was also a time when i could never felt happier. It was the
day when (insert name) and I spent time and walked home together after a
good long year of separation. Its about 2 years now and we were both
attached then. Friends said our feelings were mutual but we were then tied
down to our partners so there was nothing we could do. When i got to know he
was having major problems with his girl, i felt my hopes rising up. And i
thought that maybe my wait was finally over but then again, maybe not.

But now, im a free-flying kite in the sky. No longer tied to a ball of string held
by some guy. I once told my then boyfriend, "If you really love a girl, you wont
make her wait no matter how bad the situation you are in". He said he
understood my decision but the next day, he humiliated me in his Friendster
profile and striked me off his friends list. I dont see the need of you doing all
that if you were to really understand. Guess i didnt realise you were that petty
huh? I wanted to end this in a good manner but you made things difficult. Well,
two can play the game. I bet you will find someone new soon anyway,
considering how fast you replaced Yaya with me. Im sorry, i didnt mean to be
harsh but being attached with you just isnt as easy as i thought. Unlike
Fiefie, im not the kind who would wait obediently for every weekend to
come around since their boyfriend is locked up in the west area. But still,
things with her and Cloud dont always go so well either. So is love really
worth waiting for?

Well, single life aint easy for me either. Yes, it is more carefree and
independent but i'll just get bored and lonely as each day passes by. No
one to leash everything out to at night and talk to till the wee hours in the
morning. True, i've still got my guy-friends but it just doesnt feel the same.
Sometimes it gets so bad that i just have to break down thinking about the
happiness i once owned and what i had done to lose all that and gained such
loneliness. Im getting tired of always reassuring myself with "Life is great,
life is wonderful" everyday when most of time, it isnt. Unbelievably, i dont
shed a tear for heartbreaking, sad songs/movies now but instead for sweet
and romantic ones (HSM 3 is one good example).
Because why? Cause..
1) Im used to heartbreaks as ive been getting it all along. My heart feels numb
towards it now.
2) I know i wont get to expreience that kind of true love displayed on-screen.

But hey, maybe i will. Only not until the many many long years to come. Luckily
there is school and studies to distract me from all this. Cause even though i
sucks much in my studies, at least there is something else for me to focus on
besides my screwed-up lonely love life.