26DecO7 .

outing with sis Fie & Qin , Acun and Ipin . hahaha ! nothing much to say but aku laugh out loud all the way oi . kekek maha kekek eh ? haha ! aku loooove diorg .

& aku dan Fie da dpt Batman tee kiter la se . Fie itam , Diy puteh . heeee ! happy giler bab eh aku :DD

wei mulot kau stop it sak . kau fikir kau dah bnyk peh expert pe dlm hal cinte nie sumerh ? seblm kau pinpoint jari kau kat org laen , lebih baek kau pi cermin diri kau sendiri la eyh . dgrdgr Diyana spoiler ? Diyana shit ? kau betol tk betol ? mintk kenek maki sial lu pmpn . otak pandai masok Express tapi mkne coincidence pun tk tau kepa ? tk faham siot aku ngn perangai kau . kau bbl laen , tp uat laen . kalau yer pun eh kau cemburu , tkya nk uat mulot psl org laen kan ? babi betol . selame nie kau peh rahsie ngn probs sumerh aku simpan tkd bilang org , tp blkg aku kau bbl taik psl aku ey ? puki la sial . kau dah hancurkn ati dier gitu mcm beh skrg kau mau masokkn aku dlm story korg pulak ? tkmo perangai uh gerl . naseb kau la oi aku maseh respect perasaan dier utk kau .

due to my leg yg dah mcm gini ,

all i ever did for the past few days was to sit home and do nothing .
but thanks to my dearest kak sedare who borrowed me her Korean dvds ;

Princess Hours , Prince Hours and Dae Jang Geum , aru tk mendak siot aku dok umah .

basically , i've got nothing else to say but these three are a must-watch ! especially Princess Hours , romantic laah sgt ! cair oi aku tgk gelagat Lee Shin dgn Chae-Kyung . now im waiting for her Coffee Prince dvd pulak . heee !

alalalalala , aku benci lala .

hello world ,

i'm back from Muar !

hahaha , actually i was home since Sunday night .

the reason for not updating for the past two days

was because of my leg .

my fcuking stooopid leg who got injured when i fell

at Muar last Saturday .

we were exploring the kampong surroundings ,

& we were just being friendly with the kampong kids

by playing catching with them .

run run run ... and then , *thud* i fell .

jeans aku koyak siaaaaaaaaaal ,

aderh lobang kat tgh !

u guys knw how rocky Malaysia's road is right ?

so there were bruises and cuts everywhere cause i fell on the road .

& also ,

one of the bones in my left leg got dislocated and it started to swell .

bengkak oi ~

the most fucktard part is that ,

the swell is at the knee .

so yah , i cant walk properly !

walking from my room to the computer stand would

take me 2 mins , when its only 1m away .

(p.s. the pict above shows my bruises , not the swell)

lets just pray tht my leg will heal before this Thurs alright ?

cause im going Batu Pahat , balek kampong lagik .

but this time with the cousins on my daddy's side .

hope tht it would be a blast ,

cause the Muar trip was such a disappointment .

since the fall happened just few hours aft we arrived there ,

the night and the second day at Muar was just

sleeping , sitting , hanging around in the house

and not much exploring & moving around .

im so sorry to dearest fifie , deeluh ,

ninie and nad because of my clumsiness .

but anw , the trip was quite exciting because of the

non-kampung atmosphere .

there's a huge tv (even bigger than mine oi !) and

a whole stack of popular dvd shows .

& we even watched the Asian Idol there , hahaha .

i would also like to say a big Thankyou to Fifie cousin

who've taken good care of me aft i had my fcuking fall .

she was the one who held my hand to support me

wherever i go .

she was the one who helped me fetch my stuffs when i

couldnt reach 'em .

also , she was the one who bathed me cause i

couldnt stand properly to bathe on my own .

Fifie dearh , ku sayaaang kau sangatsangat !

pictures will be put up soon ,

cause im still waiting for Deeluh's digicam & Fifie's hp picts .

for today , just read my post & pray for my Get well soon keh ?

balek kampung outing was postponed to Saturday .
holiday-ing with family at Desaru is supposed to be on Saturday .
our family gave in , so Desaru outing was cancelled .
fucktard sia .

13DecO7 .

didnt went for kayaking cause of the

last-min 'postponation'

( hahaha . is thr even such a word ? )

& i dont wish to rot at home .
so met up with Sasha , Dolly & Wak Star

at Bugis Street around 2 .

rindu oi aku kat dorg ! ;)

we shopped , ate at LJS .

then ..... shop again .

temankn Dolly shopping maut sak .

bole reput taw tulang kaki kau sumerh .

dah round tige kali pun ,

tk jmpe jgk aperh yg dier nk .

tk faham aku ngn tu minah .

after that , Wak Star brought us to Arab St

cause Dolly die-die nk photoshoot kat

lorong-lorong sanerh .

yes , i knw wht u'll be thinking ;

"eww lorong-lorong ?"

hahaha .

but the picts turned out nice , mind you .
so standard uh ,

we camwhored & lepaklepak sumer .

& to Yuan Xing , SORRY for not attending ur bbq party instead . but anyw , happy birthday . ((:
miss you lotsa .

so now i have to go .

i've got to pack my stuffs for tmr .

hope to have some fun with dearest cousins .

i'll be away for the wkend .

do miss me , my gorgeous loved ones .

i think im okay now . its just tht i need somebody to talk to everytime it happens .

"To die in order to avoid the pains of poverty , love , or anything tht is disagreeable , is not the part of a brave person , but of a coward ."

- unknown

But what happens when life became too difficult and torturous

to be endured ?

Would u just choose to end it ? Or would u live on ?

Much had happened over the past few days .

Yellings and beatings tht got out of control ,

fights and arguments tht couldnt be stopped .

Ive been going in and out of home since last Thursday .

Wandering alone in the streets of BB west ,

with no one to talk to , and no shoulders to cry on .

My neighbourhood turned out to be the only true friend i have ;

the staircase were my listening ears and

the walls were the shoulders that i leaned to cry on .

It was pathetic to be pouring out my problems to a carpark but still ,

i was grateful to it for being thr for me at tht point of time .

But back then , i kept wondering ..

where were all my friends ?

those friends whom i thought will always be by my side no matter wht ...

Why does all of them seemed to disappear whenvr im

always at my losing end ?

Yes , i always kept silent about my problems as i wouldnt want to be a burden to those friends who were alr facing much .

But a girl still needs her special companion at times like this , dont you think ?

First , it was family . Then , it was friendship ;

once again , parents got mad ovr a slight misunderstanding .

& i got caught in a love triangle , again .

oh God , how can i ever put an end to all this ?

Thinking abt it just gives me a headache . & ive been forcing myself to vomit at least twice every hour , hoping tht the ache will go away aft doing so .

Suicide is never a remedy . & I aint those typical kind of girls to be doing stupid stuffs to themselves whenevr they're feeling down .

Because I have to be strong for my siblings , and myself .

Dear dearest ,

Everything tht is happening now , reminds me so much of our March memories .

Everything was the same ; the situation , the problems , the people , the punishment and all .

The only difference is tht .. now , you are no longer by my side .

& it hurts to see history repeating itself without you .

& im so sorry fr not updating for such a long time .

you've read my post ,

so Diy hope u guys understand .

thankyou .

O5DecO7 .

Today was super duper cool , really !
Went Causeway Point with Deeluh Darla & Abgku Hafiz to watch Enchanted .
The superb part was both me and Deeluh dont even have to
fork out a single cent fr our movie tickets .
Be jealous ppl , because its all on my dearest apiz doink !
Maha generous oi dier ~
Thanks bro ! Manerh dier dpt duit sebnyk gitu , aku pun tk tau .
Enchanted was so ......... Enchanting .
& so so sweet and romantic . I was practically smiling throughout the whole show .
Im definitely saving up to buy the cd once its released so tht i could
watch it over and over again . heeee !
And i seriously think Amy Adams is dropdead gorgeous .
Im sooooo in love with her now . :D
The show ended around 4.45 , i think .
Then we went Banquet to have our .... lunch ? dinner ? hahaha !
The chicken noodle tht i bought was oh-so-delicious !
bleah . i was being sarcastic .
The noodle tastes kinda weird laah . But well , i finished it anw .
& thanks to Hafiz again fr ur Banquet card .
We both love you laaah oi ! ((:
Then Abgku Hafiz wanted to sent us home .
So we took 187 together .
Aft much discussion , both me & Deeluh Darla got off the bus at
Bukit Panjang Plaza .
Hafiz was busy chatting away with some friends tht he had
bumped into in the bus .
& he didnt get down at the same stop with us .
So it was left with only , me & her . :D
Went walkwalk around bpp , took quite a number of picts
before heading back home .
And yes , both me & Deeluh Darla was unhappy about something .
We didnt take any picts when we were at Causeway !
Kite tkd amek satu gmbr pun ngn Hafiz ! Haiyaaa !
Then , at around 11pm , Deeluh Darla and I talked on the phone .
I then brought Abgku Hafiz in the conversation with us .
Together , we said thankyou to him for treating us to the movie .
& yah , for the Banquet card too .
The both of us had to rehearse on wht to say to

him for about 10 mins before i can

actually call him for conferencing .
Hahaha ! Giler kan kiter ?
But once again , i would like to say thankyou to

Hafiz Bro for treating me and cousin to Enchanted . (:

Deeluh Darla !

Deeluh short , Diy tall !

thanks Fie for the cardigan . sayaang kau manymany . (:


I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
And a prince I'm hoping comes with this

Ohwell , im so addicted to Enchanted , im even changing the song in my blog to one of its theme song ; True Love's Kiss . (((((:

i will be waiting patiently fr my prince too ,
just like how Giselle waited for hers .

Actually , i hve long forgotten abt this .

But since u've msged me and brought the topic up ,

let me just clear this mess once and for all .

So girlf , this is especially fr you .

Im sorry tht i didnt tell u everything tht he told me .

How was i supposed to ?

When 1/5 of whtevr he said made u real happy .

& another 4/5 of it will hurt u deeply .

Why must i be the one to reveal his awful truth to u ?

U're my good friend . But at the same time , he is my friend too .

He was the one to make me realise whtever wrongdoings tht

i've done towards another friend of ours .

U dont knw hw grateful i was to him fr tht .

Tht made it very hard for me .

Its not tht i wanted to keep the truth frm u so tht u will wait fr him like an old fool .

But i couldnt bring myself to it .

Much of whtevr tht happened btwn u and him ,

reminded me of my own present situation .

& trust me , it really does hurts to find myself helping others in their rshp when i cant even help myself in my own love life problems .

Rmbr those days when he doesnt reply to ur msges

or doesnt sms u fr the whole day ?

U may not realise it . But have u evr noticed tht usually aft u confided in me abt his attitude , only then he will reply to ur msges or evn call u few mins aft .

Wht do u think really happened ?

Do u really thought he was sincere in replying ur msges ?

Im sorry to say this dear , but he is not .

I was the one who called him and made sure tht he replied to every single msg tht u send him .

I nvr wanted to tell u all this , & i even told dearest Afa nt to say anything about it . Tht is why this secret still remained as a secret till nw .

But i no longer want to keep all these to myself .

I no longer want to hide anything else frm u .

Never had i got bored in helping u and him . But i aint any wonderwoman .

U cant expect me to be coping with ur problems when i

myself are facing with much right now .

Much things have i done without u even knowing it .

Im not expecting anything frm u in return aft telling u all this ,

please dont misundrstd .

Instead , the reason im telling u now is just so tht u knw wht really went on thruout the entire time u were with him , before u start afresh and move on .

Babe , be strong alright ?

Like i've said , u're not alone in this .

We're together in the same ocean , facing the same storms ,

only tht we're in different boats .

We can cry as much as we want .

But at the end of the day , we still have to put on a tough face to others to show tht we're fine .

& we'll prove to those guys who treated us like dirts ,

tht they can nvr bring us dwn .

Once again , i would like to apologize for keeping the truth frm u .

O3DecO7 .

lately , ive been missing quite a few things .

first and for most ,

i miss my skinnies and blouses tht were thrown by my dad two wks ago .

daddy threw away 3 of my skinnies ; hot pink , white & brown .

i didnt even get to wear the brown one sia coz it was thrown away the day i bought it itself .

the faded denim and light brown pants got lucky as they were in the washing machine at tht point of time .

& now , i always had a hard time deciding on wht to wear since very few of my tops were left .

sometimes , just looking at my empty wardrobe could make me go mad again at dad .

but there is nothing i could do now.

there is no use crying over spilt milk anyway .

secondly ,

i miss my red hair oi !

thinking of highlighting it of another colour .

gold perhaps ? hee !

but mummy doesnt approve of gold .

she thinks i should stick to brown . hmphhh !

& also , the auntie says my hair needed rests .
she said my hair roots will get damaged soon as ive

used much chemicals fr straightening , colouring , re-colouring and treatment .

is it ? oh i dont know abt tht .
but maybe i shouldnt be stubborn fr this time alright ? (:

so peeps , for 2007's Dec hols ,

Diy's hair will officially remain the same .

Thirdly ,

i miss the laughter & fun in the family .

weekly outings , midnight snacks , monthly shopping .

i miss all those laaah oi .

how i wished everything would be back as per normal .

do pray fr me oke ? heee !

and lastly ,

i miss my girlfriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiends !

yunis , syaE , ice , dolly , peihui , fiefie , diah , hudaaa , ezah , eerah , fieza , fiiedah , alynie , ziezie , azlin , zatie , afah , nira , mimi , melody .

babes , Diy rinduuuuuuu korang sangatsangat !

meet up soon alright ? (:

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Seharusnya aku menyayang .

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... untukmu .