29NovO7 .

its been a looooooooong time since i updated .

im so soooorry ezah . (:

ive been busy with erm , lets just say .. stuffs .

much had happened over the past seven days .

on the 23rd ,

went Jurong for another job interview .
then rushed down to Suntec to cheer on for sisterku Nadiah , who was competing in a national rock-climbing competition .

then on the 24th ,

spent the night at adah's crib .

fuuuuh ! sungguh fun !

on the 25th ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINI ! (:

my cute lil sister who turned six this yr .

wish u all the best in ur primary life .

celebrated her birthday at Dil's house .

balloons , cakes , food , presents , money !

i guess she must have been real happy on her big day .

most of the picts in mummy's hp .

so sorry , peeps . ):

♥

then from the 26th to 28th ,

i attended an Ncc day-camp .

hahaha ! real joke alright .

must have looked weird tht i finally went for Ncc after so long .

but hey , it was not so bad laah .

infact , the camp was great !

i love SSG Xin Ying ,

3SG Nadiah ,

& all of the other Griphon's members !

fyi , the spelling is actually Gryphon but we made

the amendments on our own . hee !

the first day of camp ,

was tough & darn strict oi !

fr a 'new' cadet like me .

running , pumping , drilling , shouting , cleaning .

all aku tk bole angkat siot .

second day ,

was much better !

there was the confidence game , an IFC test ,

bends & hitches practical & seamanship theory .

woah ! there was a whole lotta things tht i had to

junk into my brain fr all these tests .

maut siaaaak !

confirm fail punya .

but even so ,

it was the best day ever in my entire Ncc life .

then on the last day of camp ; 28th ,

we went trekking from our Toh Tuck campus to Bukit Timah Hill .
Griphon was the last group to reach school .

& why ? because we wanted to be different frm the other groups ;

thus we became adventurous !

hahaha ! we rock okay !

instead of trekking the normal road track ,

we went futher into nature by trekking through the

Rock Path and also the Kruing (is it ? im not so sure of the name) Path .

nie baru name nyerh Adventurous Spirit !

also , we took the longer route to the Hill to challenge ourselves .

Griphon best oi ! (:

we also had a bbq on the night of the last day of camp .

phew . im so so tired now .

so please , let the pictures do the talking alright ?

hahaha ! my siao 'boyfriend' fr the day .

oh im starting to love Ncc . maybe i really should attend trainings regularly now .

Ncc & Griphon ,

Gerek Maha Gerek Oi ~

& i sooo love my new hp laaaa . (:

22NovO7 .

fuck-faces of ours . whee ~

ILY laaah Hafiz bro !

♥ Hai - Adam AF2 .

Hai ! Siapa nama ?

Boleh kenal atau pun tidak ?

Duduk kat mana ?

Dengan siapa ?

Ada handphone , apa nombornya ?

Bolehkah kita bersama ?

liriks aperh aje kan ?

sooo crappy .

& so so typical of teenage guys zaman skrg .

pandang sekali ajerh , da nk sound stead .

eeeeew . so turned off laah siaaaak .

allow me to share with my dearest readers my experience when i tried rollerblading fr the first time .

hahaha !

i Suck laaah seh .

& somemore , my tutor is my little sister sia .

hee ! malu malu .

it took me about 10 mins to stand up using rollerblades .

when i could finally stand , i couldnt balance laaah pulak .
tht took me another 10 mins .

& at last ! when i could do all tht ,

it was time for a quick pose . (:

now , is anyone willing to coach me rollerblading ? hee !

& kaq La , wht u said could be right .

maybe i should be the one giving in ,

even though the punishment given to me is far

too much compared to the wrong tht i had done .

yes , i was pretty mad . & very very sad .

who wouldnt kan if the stuffs tht they had bought using

their own money were being thrown away like tht ?

but if i continue being thick-headed and

refuse to listen to wht they tell me to do ,

then they too will treat me the same way .

end up , me & my parents wont be talking to each other ,

just like the way we are now .

beh kalau cam tu , biler mau game ?

maybe i'll try it their way for just a few months .

just like wht u said , if i listen to them ,

i can gain their trust back ,

and i will get my usual freedom once more .

but about u buying for me back the stuffs tht i had lost ,

its okay actually .

u dont have to waste the money tht u've earned on me .

Yana pun tanak susa kn kaq La .

i will try not to be as stubborn as i am now and

be nice to my parents ,

just the way u've adviced me to .

but im not changing because of them .

its simply because of u .

thanks for being so caring to call me just to talk about this .

uve opened up my eyes to see how i could change the situation ,

instead of just letting it remain this way .

thankyou kaq La for everything . (:

18NovO7 .

cousins tercinta !

thankyou Dil for coming over to listen to my probs .

it was great to have you as a listener . (:

& i love the girl-talks with you and Ica !

we spent about two hours talking about boys , romance , sex , and etc .

hee ! teramat laaah fun !

secrets were revealed ,,

problems were shared .

after our chit-chat session , its photo-taking time !

we wanted to test Dil's photography skills .

but i had to be her model .

harharhar ! i suck laaaah oi !

when its already 4am , we realised tht its time for 'lights off' .

or else , we could nvr wake up on time for our afternoon plans .

but the sad thing was ,

a last min plan came up .

& we had to head over to bukit panjang just as soon as we woke up .

haiyaaaa !

we couldn't even spend the afternoon together ,

just like we had planned .

but o wells ,

at least i had fun .

& finally , there was something tht could make me forget about the shits tht im facing right now .

so once again , a big thankyou to dearest cousins for making my night ! (:

a hypocrite .

is tht what u want me to be ?

forcing me to be who i am not .

what is it tht you want to show to others ?

tht you have a good and happy family ?

when actually , we're arguing every minute whenever i'm at home .

are you so ashamed of me ?

of my attitude ? of my hair colour ?

of my eyebrows ? of how i dress ?

no matter how bad i may be , im still ur daughter .

you gotta accept me just as i am .

dont try to change me using religion .

you know tht will nvr work .

you would always scold me , "tk mkn saman punye bdk" .

then wht about you ?

you're no better .

you've punished me this way once , before .

& what happened ?

i fled from home and nvr came back till the day you came searching for me in school .

would you like it if history repeats itself ?

didnt you learn from old times' experience ?

siket pun tk heran uh kau label aku binatang .

tapi sampai ati sial kau buang sume bende aku .

sume yg aku beli pkai duit sendiri pulak tu .

buang sume yg baru-baru ;

aderh yg belom perna pkai pun .

aderh yg price tag pun belom tanggal kan siaaal .

aderh yg belom lagi kluar kn dari plastic pun .

tk berhati perot kape kau ?

$184 aku , gone gitu mcm je sial !

babi betol .

aku tau , kau yg tanggung aku nye mkn minum selame nie .

tapi tu tk bermakne kau bole tarik baleq ape ajerh yg kau nk dari aku .

lagi-lagi bende yg satu sen pun tkd pkai duit kau .

kejam siak kau .

kau tk suke rambot merah aku ,

aku da tukar .

belom puas lagi kapa kau ?

aku tk kn perna lupe kn kejadian nie luh taw .

aku used to respect kau .

tp mane kau nyerh respect utk aku in return ?

kau kutok kening aku mcm setan .

kau ugut aku , konon nye nk cukor sume bulu kening aku .

tk rugi uh siots kalau kau botak kn kening aku .

biler-biler mase je bole pi kedai buat kening angkong uh sia .

kau panggil aku anak hantu .

kau ckp aku bikin rumah kau mcm nerake .

binawe peh bpk !

eh fine luh ehq .

utk puaskn ati kau ,

aku bole angkt baju pastu jejak klua uh skrg .

aku pun tk ingin uh sia nk ddk kat dlm rumah KAU utk selamenye .

skrg skirt aku , skinnies aku , baju aku , kasut aku sume kau da buang .

aku klua mau pkai ape sia ?

tu sume kau tk fikerkn .

hp aku pun kau turut kebas .

fucktard uh siakkkkk !

sialan .

as you can see ,

blogskin changed !

white & simple plain .

but its kinda toooo plain , isnt it ?

bleah , nehmind ..

janji blog aku aderh skin .

♥ dokter cinta - dewi dewi .

mama mama mama , tolong laaah aku yg sedang bingung !

papa papa papa , inikah yg dinamakan cinta ?

3E5 ?

okay best !

well actually , i was really hoping fr E4 .

hee ! ttm ehq . results tk sbrape , harapan nk letak tinggi-tinggi.

but nvm , wht really matters is tht im still in the Express Stream .

& better still , i'll be with my best 2E3 peeps ; Mardiah , Ipin , Eunice , Nira , Nicholas , Maggie , Danial , Luqman , Kenneth & Afah .

alright uh kawan-kawan !

kite sume buat kecoh sama itu kelas ! ♥

O9NovO7 !

hit Town with Ice & Dolly .

Ice brought along her friend , Fazil .

while Dolly brought Pei Hui .

at first i was like , "omg ! should i bring along a friend too ?"

but heh ! the answer was no.

they were very friendly too, making it easier for me to get along with them in just minutes.
the five of us walked and walked and walked and walked.

from Peninsula , to Esplanade , & then to Marina.

i was lucky enough tht my feet didnt gave up on me. *phew

throughout the long walking journey ,we eat , drink , laugh & play .

but most importantly , we enjoyed ! (:

& needless to say , our Photos !

L.O.V.E ! ♥

RETARDS !

& we got to take a photo with two hot american dudes , mind you !

much more picts in store. but im considering to upload it in friendster . so its like a surprise gitu kan. ((:

Betapa Aku Mencintaimu - Vagetoz

betapa aku mencintaimu

dengan sepenuh hatiku

betapa aku menyayangimu

lebih dari yang kau tahu
inginku bahagiakan dirimu setiap saat bersamaku

seperti janjiku kepadamu takkan pernah ku ingkari

aku kan slalu ada di dekatmu

aku kan slalu menemani harimu

kau harus tau betapa aku mencintaimu

betapa aku mencintaimu

with everything inside of me.

♥
aku mencintaimu dengan sepenuhnya.

tidak ada seorang pun yang tahu betapa dlmnya perasan sayangku terhadapmu ,

termasuk dirimu sendiri.

aku tidak mampu lagi utk membahagiakan dirimu setiap saat kamu ada bersamaku

kerana kita berdua memang sudah tidak mempunyai sesaat pun untuk bersama.

pernahku janji kepadamu bahawa aku akan ubah cara hidupku.

dan hingga ke hari ini , janji itu tidak pernah ku ingkari.

sudahku tinggalkan segala perbuatan salahku ,

semuanya demi kamu yg telah memberikan ku semangat selama ini.

aku tahu bahawa aku tidak akan pernah bisa untuk selalu berada di dekatmu ataupun selalu menemani harimu lagi , seperti waktu dahulu.

walaupun begitu , aku akan tetap menunggu dan menyayangimu.

sorry peeps , i know i sounded sooo jiwang .

O7NovO7 .

well , today is Sister-Bonding Time ! (:

sis belanja me lunch at IMM's Bagus Restaurant as she felt sorry tht i couldnt go fr the chalet.

aww, so sweet of her right ?

ate spaghetti bolognese & fish and chips.

& its all on her !

its not even my birthday u know.

sis , ure the best , babe . ((:

after IMM , we went to Jurong Entertainment to search for my eyebrow razor. & sis wanted to try the Sour Squeeze. so we went searching for it both.

then we saw Giordano. i mean , i saw Giordano. went in and checked out the simple tees.
you know , dull-coloured tshirts tht has no fonts and other stuffs on it ? yea , suddenly im SO INTO them.

looked at the price tag. & omfg ! 2 for $39 ?! i mean , cmon lah , the tees are plain. so whts with the Ex price ? okay , so maybe its just the brand. but $39 is unreasonable man.

oh well , those tees looked so cute. they were like staring at me with those big dolly eyes. i couldnt possibly walked out of Gior without them. so , whatever whatever . bought them anyway.

i had fun though trying the tees out in the fitting rm. not to mention , taking photos. but no ! i aint posting them here . hee !

overall , aku enjoyed today ! thankyou sis for making my day ! ILY .❤

O6NovO7 .

right now, im supposed to be at Coasta Sands.

i should already be bathing kat laut & bbq-ing with dearest 2E3.but instead im stuck here at home.

blame it on the damn fever & flu.

fucktard siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal !

ive been waiting and looking forward to our class chalet siol.

abeh when the day finally came,

wahsey ! im down with all sorts of penyakit.

if only i had known , i would have took greater effort to tc of my health.

there is no use crying over something that has happened now.*sighs.

& oh ,

Happy Birthday Shafiq ! (:

enjoy today , my dear friend . ❤

lets skip , skip , skip to
O1NovO7.

today was even better !went raya-ing again.but this time round, with my ex-Yuhualites babes.

today gerek lah okay ! (:

27OctO7

this yr, we decided that less is more.

so after much discussion & arguments, we went out raya-ing with ONLY the 2E3 malay students.
Sungguh Fun !

tetapi walaupun bergembira, duka tetap terasa di dlm hati.
wahsey! cam faham eh. but yah, our dearest Nira couldnt come along due to some personal reasons. felt like theres something missing in every house we go. but, there is still a next yr right ? we are just hoping that u wont repeat that mistake of urs again, yer Nira ?

& finally ! i got to take a shot with abg tercinta !

credits to Afah dear. (:

26OctO7

its the last day of school for yr 2007.
nothing much left to say.just wanna emphasize ,
that i will definitely miss 2E3.

went blog-hopping just now. read dearest classmates' posts about the breaking up of 2E3. guys, im so touched ! some even brought tears to the eyes.

never had i realised 2E3 means this much to me.

im foolish.
im stupid.
& im unappreciative.
i ignored the ppl who cherished me.
but cherished the person who ignored me.


i took all of you for granted,
when y'all have alr done so much for me.
i was too confident that you guys will nvr leave me,
thus i treated all of u unfairly.

Luqman ;
I was the first girl u've ever been serious with in ur secondary life.
Yet, I played with ur feelings unsympathetically.
I dumped u for a close friend of yours.
Not only have I hurt u ,
I've also made the both of ur friendship turned sour.
I'm so Sorry.


Rauf ;
The one person who had always been by my side throughout this rocky journey.
Your support and confidence in me used to mean alot to me.
Yet, i didnt appreciate it.
I know u've tried ur best,
but it still ain't enough to erase him from my heart.
please Forgive me.


Shafiq ;
i used you,
hoping that i could forget him after knowing you well.
But as soon as i knew i could not,
i ignored u just like that.
im Sorry to have treated you that way.
the Mickey that you gave me,
the song that u wrote for me,
& ur sweet voice that sang it,
will always be kept as fond memories in my heart.


Mamat ;
whatever promises that ive made to u were just a pack of lies.
ive never really love you,
like i said i did.
im Sorry to have given u so much hope when i wasnt even being true.
thanks for the watch and everything else you've given me.
i'd really appreciate them.

im really sorry, guys.
i, too, didnt want things to turn out this way.
but i had no other options.
i was lonely.
i only needed a friend to fill up my nights with,
just like what he used to do months ago.
but you guys wanted me to be more than just a friend.
please understand that ,
i can never get attached to anyone.
Ever again.
simply because,

i can never forget him.