Bowling :D

Didnt know a thing about bowling at first.

But now, i think im starting to love it!

Hahahahaha might want to gather sometime

later to bowl with you people again.

Thanks Eerah and Phyrah (cousin's friends) for

coming down as well to make yesterday a great

experience for me. After bowling, we had our dinner

at WestMall's MacD before heading off to Bangkit

and bade goodbye to everyone.

Okay ah i'm lazy to elaborate la. Heheheheh

countdown tomorrow, where will you guys be

heading to? Cause im not sure myself. Hope to have

fun celebrating New Year's Eve tomorrow (:

These are the only pictures i have for the

trip to Kluang, Selangor. We took over 50 pictures

but it looks like my cousins are taking a looong time

to transport it to me, hahaha. But in short, i enjoyed my

time there as we had one hotel room to ourselves girls. We

conquered it all. And there was even A&W! A place that

Singapore doesnt have no more. I kept going in and out of my

room just to get my onion rings from A&W. Hahaha, yes

i know i'll be gaining much more weight soon. Bleah who

cares, its not like i have a bf or husband to please anyway.

What did i do today? Jurong Point & West Coast.

With who? Heheheheh dont want tell you all :D

Tomorrow? Swimming.

With who? My cousins (:

And in case you dont know, my life is being controlled

very tightly since that case. So dont expect to see me

roaming around Singapore, like i used to before.

Okay im tired. Goodnight everyone. And oh,

school's reopening! I miss Afah and Anneeeee :(

Im such a nuisance. I make people worry.

Im a bad daughter, and a really bad example of a

sister to my younger siblings.

I know ive been doing this for countless of times

already. Im sorry mummy, that i still cant be

changed. Things are getting out of control now.

And im ready to face any consequences given.

I just want to say thank you to all who has kept

me company throughout this whole week of hell.

And to those mothers who has been dragged in along

because of me, im really sorry for that.

Im anxious for tomorrow. I hope everything will be

alright for me and the three of you.

12 to 14 Dec.

The strong kampung house taken care by my 90-year-old great grandma.

This is what happens when girls try so hard to do

the boys' barbeque chores.

The only one standing up, strong and tall!

As usual, always the poser :D

Stills lots more in store but im too lazy to upload. I have yet to have a proper meal eversince i came back from Play yesterday. It was definitely fun for me and i was totally enjoying myself and shaking my ass out with the dudes in there. But sadly, my poor Eunice felt so left out as we were in the crowd where most were Malays and she felt kinda uncomfortable with the Mat reps around. She only stood in for a few hours before leaving us when her kor kor came to fetch her from there. Duì bu qǐ hor. So after we sent her off, we continued on with our dance madness. We entered the club with only three members but leave the club with almost ten new friends. I even reunite with my kindergarten bestfriend! :D Photos of yesterday are still with Eunice. I'll try to get it from her when she's back from her camp and have had her rest and all. Photos of the 3E5's chalet are also with her. Im so going to bug her to get online sooon! :D

I'll post everything up once i got my hands on them alright! It already 2.54am in the morning and im think id better be going to my bed now cause ive been wearing my contacts for 6 days straight and its feeling very very dryyyy now. Let me just summarise what i did for the past few days.

• 12 - 14 Dec: Balik kampuuuuung
• 14 - 15 Dec: Class chalet
• 16 Dec: Club @ Play
• 17 Dec: Sheesha with Fie, Troy & friends
• 18 Dec (today): Ton-ing @ Zura's crib

Okay thats all for today. Good night everyone (morning, it should actually be). Sleep tight! (:

Will be away for 3 days in Malaysia.

I'll be back maybe in the early morning

of Monday or late night Sunday. If time permits,

i'll drop by 3E5's chalet alright (:

Hopefully i'll have a safe trip ahead.

Enjoy your weekend, sunshines! :D

The further i try to walk away,

the harder you pulled me back.

I thought reality would snap me back

once we've reached back to our homeland.

But i thought wrong.

Friends keep telling me its fate that

brought us back together, once again.

But no, things were different then. I'm

really trying my very best to deny those emotions

ive developed for you over these weeks.

Even though deep inside i badly want you

to want me, miss me, adore me, cherish me,

care for me and tell me that im the one you love.

Too bad for us, things have changed.

Yes, you've taken care of me well for these

past nights. And im thankful for that.

I was drunk, yet i could feel your lips on mine

and your hands locked with mine. Could

you please explain to me whats all that about?

Cause i really dont understand you.

Thanks to you, ive never felt this happy since so long.

But i think its time this happiness should

stop. Cause this happy feeling feels so wrong.

The more time we spent together, the more memories
i will have with you. You may have your girlfriend to

distract you from what we have shared but i dont.

So let us go back to how it used to be, where you

would be happily together with your girlfriend

while i'll just sit and rot away in my single life.

Thank you for those great nights you've asked me

out. I'm sure i'll miss you. I really will.

Woah, its been days since i last slept well. Im currently @ Adele

Cousin's crib. Stayed over for the night yesterday. Ive been

ton-ing out for the past three days. With who? Heheh thats

for me to know and for you to find out :D

The truth was known by Mum yesterday. And ive

gotten myself a full-length lecture about being an

anak dara and so forth. Hahaha and a fight broke out

which made me drop my phone and sent my sim card

flying dooown under my wardrobe. So i'll be using either

my prepaid number or my sis' line for now. Sorry if those

text messages or calls were not entertained.

Life is definitely looking up after the Bintan trip.

Thats just in terms of my social life though.

I made a best friend out of Ryan in Bintan and was invited

to his birthday bbq party last Sunday. After the party, met

up with some friends and off we went to ton at Toh Guan.

Last night, met up with the same clique again and we

walked from Bangkit to Fajar then to Greenridge.

Haiyoo, asal keluar dgn korang aje eh mesti kena

jalan jauh. My heels are aching now but its okay, i

think i need the exercise anyway.

Okay la people, i think i need my rest now.

Granny has cooked some jemput-jemput for us

cousins. I want to taste 'em now and have my

sleep then. Have a great day ahead, everyone! :D

Finally after what it feels like so long,

ive come back home. Thank you

to Syaee baby and Big Brother for bringing

me home. Alhamdulillah, things have been

much better. Not forgetting my new friend too,

Achmat/Achmad? Whatever his name is, for

his advises and opinions. And sorry to Uni whose

name was also dragged in when he wasnt even

with me at all. Sesapa yang pepandai peng nama

kau tu, kita pelan-pelan carik sesama kay? (:

Surprisingly, Mum was cool with who i am

and whatever i had done. Despite having to go to and

fro back to school for counselling, Dad didnt even hit

or touched me a single bit. Im allowed to keep my

eyebrow and tongue piercing. And she even allowed

me to wander off to Sembawang Park alone to have

some peace of mind on my own. The sound of the waves

crashing onto the walls of the jetty, the faint stars in

the sky really brought my memories back to Bintan.

I miss Bintan, and those times i had. Hahaha only

the closest of the closest shall know of what

happened :D

And oh ya, there were news told to Mum. Hahaha

i didnt know im still one hot topic in school huh?

Even teachers know about what happened between

me and (insert name)? Now who are these students who

cant keep their smelly mouth shut from talking about

others? And just when i thought those days of gossiping

about me was over, hah! Hellooo, my virginity isnt much

of your concern. If you think spreading around rumours

about my sex life would do you any good, then go ahead.

But let me tell you something, i rarely keep secrets from

my Mum. She already knows how filthy and stinky the

mouth of some people in the school. So if you think she'd

choose to believe your stupid rumours over me, then

i think you need to think again (:

Okay, this is just a short update to tell others
out there that im still alive and kicking.
I think i should go and have my bath now cause
i'll be meeting Ayie soon for Ryan's birthday
bbq. Hahaha i need a present, i need one badly! ;D

Aku dah cakap, aku tk nak balik.

Tu lah degil.. Balik jugak.

Kan tenguk apa dah jadi.

Asal jejak rumah aje, perang mula.

Kau control, aku rebel.

Sorry, but thats just the way i am.

I waited. I saw. I chased. I fell.

To hell to those who laughed at me.

When i look up, he's already out of my sight.

I perspired much. I was breathless.

I felt like such a failure.

3 hours gone to waste. My heart broke.

I was in so much pain.

Finally after all that, i couldnt deny no more

how i felt for him. And for the first time, after

almost two years, i let out those tears ive kept

inside for so long.

Im currently using my new prepaid number. Ive lost most of my

contacts. Feel free to pass me your number anytime.

In the meantime, you can get me through here, MSN or Fs (:

Hello people, im baaaack! Bintan was a blast!

Spending my 4 days there was definitely not enough.
I think i need another 4 more months! Hehe.

Even teachers loosen up and relax there. We were

allowed to smoke and roam about wherever we want

at night. Hahahaha coool or what? We spent all nights

at Loola Resort. Unlike the boys who got dorms with just

matresses, the girls get a full set room with double-storey beds,

toilet and balcony all inside :D Afifah and I shared a room with

Ezzaty and Shikin. All my nights were great, thanks to (insert

name). We did activities that i had never tried before too.

There was Boom Netting, Sailing and Mudwalk cum Catching
sea creatures for dinner. Hahaha! The flying fox was different

from any flying fox ive ever tried. Halfway through 'flying', we

would fall down into the water. Heee bessst kan? Afifah was too

chicken to do it anyway. She didnt know what she had missed

man! :D Ahhh also thanks to the 4T1 boys for their kind support

that made me determined to climb my way through the rock

wall. And for making this camp a noisy but enjoyable one (:

You guys have grown old, dah graduate pun. Wont be seeing all of you

anymore in school next year. Guess this camp was the last

thing we have to spent time with the 'abang-abang' of our

school (heh abang kape!). But anyway, this camp was indeed a

memorable and exciting one. Even though it was last minute told

to me. I was feeling rather down on the last day of camp as i

really dont feel like going home. If only i could stay for a

few days longer. Hah if only.. So, Mr Syam alighted us @ Westmall

then Afifah, the 4T1 boys and I went to have our dinner at Kfc.

At 8pm, we then bade each other goodbye. I then sent Afifah to her

bustop then off i goooo, back home.

Pictures are at Shikin and Mr Suhaimi. Any ideas on how can i

take the photos from them? (:

And oh ya, here are photos i found in my phone

we took during Reflections Concert @ Republic Poly.

There are still some at Anne. But she's currently having

problems with her Msn so i cant receive it from her for the mean time.

Thats Taufik, if you cant see clearly (: He is sooo handsome live! Now i understand why girls keep chasing after him :D

Okay, i'll stop here cause i wanna go back to

sleep. Goodnight sunshines! (: