Saturday, 29 March 2008.

Every human have their own limits of patience.
I'm a human too, and i guess my patience string has snapped.
You've changed, to become a person that is very different from what you really are.
First came the wild lifestyle, then came in the frequent fights that u've been having.
I dont know how much longer i can put up to this, bby.
I dont know if i can continue loving someone who cant even behave like a human now.
I dont even know if i can still bring my heart to wait for you still.
I've heard alot about your fanatic activities since a very long time ago.
But, ive kept numb and tried not to think too much of it.
Everytime a new story about you comes in, i would just shut my ears off,
hoping its all untrue.
But injuring a friend of mine ? Thats the biggest and final blow,
and i cant take it anymore.
You would think that physically hurting one person is nothing.
But u dont know how many more were emotionally hurt by what u've done.
Some are crying because they think that the reason for his bruises were not worth it,
while some were just utterly disappointed in you.
Do u know what its like for me to be walking around, only to hear ppl
cursing and bad-mouthing you ? Even though i myself think that what you
did to him was unreasonable, it still hurts to be hearing ppl bitching about you.
You've really changed, bby.
You've changed into the kind of person that i can never love.
Maybe i'm just not prepared for that type of change in you.
Maybe i'm not meant for the new you.
Maybe its better if you just remain as my past.
Maybe, its finally time for me to let this love go.

After a year of patience and perseverance, im ready to confess that I Give Up.
Its of no use anymore waiting, because he can never be mine.
Its not just his feelings that had changed, but also his attitude and everything else.
He isnt the guy that i used to know. And i dont think i can love the new him.



It was on the 29 March 2007, when he threw me out of his life.
Now, exactly one year after, on the 29 March 2008,
i finally threw my love for him out of my life.
May all this be for the better. Aamin. (:

28 March 2oo8.

Today was just like any other typical day.

But i stayed back at sch to do the Geog project,

due this coming Mon, together with my fellow

grp members - Nira, Afifah, Beatrice, Hui Yun.

Good girls laaa se ! :D

We're going to prove Ms Koh wrong !

Ms Koh, even though we make the most noise in class,

we still can hand in our assignments on time eh ! :DD

Human always makes mistakes.

But will you change if i were to believe in you again ?

You will , right ?

I hope so.

26 March 2008.

For today's English period , 3E5 went to Studio 2 for

our Group Oral Presentation.

When we first step into the room , i was like "woahhhh".

Hahaha ! ( Fyi , Its really rare for me to enter a room with a

big mirror that can reflect the whole room as im not in

any dance or musical club ).

So the three Jokesters were practically dancing and

singing our way through the room.

Haha , jakun laaa kan :D

So anyway , here are the pictures . (:

Diy & Nira mummyyyy.

Pictures taken with Ipinurul. (:

Pictures with Diana A, Shafiqah & Beatrice. (:

Haha , typically us. (((:

Okyyyyyy till here then. To Syaee , i know u'll figure things out someday. Whatever your decision is, i'll always be right there supporting you bby. & to Afifah , dont worry that ur 2nd position is taken by someone else ayeee ? Cheer up hunk ! (:

Niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggghhts everyone ~

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY (:

Nothing great happened today.

I spent most of my time sleeeeeping, eating and watching tv.

Woke up at 4 , watched Bring It On : In It to Win It. Again.

Ashley Benson & Michael Copon are reallyyyyy gorgeous :D

And they look so cute together.

Whats more, the movie is real good. To me.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighly reccomended ! :DD

I've been playing the cd for the 21st time now

since the day i rented it, which is on last Monday.

Im soo in love with the show , im thinking of buying the cd.

But, ermmmmm im kinda broke so we'll have to see about that.

Haha. A short post for today will do for today.

He hasnt been back home since yesterday,

and i'm so happy.

Finallyyyy, there's peace in this house of mine.

Okay then peeps, tooooodles ~

Enjoy ur weekends ayeeee ?

Tcaaare. (:

I want kids that will love me as much as I hated my dad.

17 March O8.

I would love to blog about something today. Because today something happened to my classmate , and im very not happy about it. Since most ppl advised me not to get into the problem because it doesnt concerns me , then i thought maybe letting it all out in my blog would make me feel much better.


IT WAS SIMPLY A MISUNDERSTANDING. Why beat him up till so bad ? U guys think u can bash someone up , and then walk away so easily ? Too bad , its become a police case now. And the whole lot of you deserve it. Sooooo desperate for respect isit ? Phui uh ! After knowing all this , u guys look nothing more like a small little ant under my big foot now. Why were you so mad at him anyway ? He wasnt even referring to you. Even if you're sensitive about it , dont you even have a mouth to talk it out ? Why violence ? And worse still , why call your big brothers to beat him up ? They dont even know the real truth. U and your members fought him out , all against one.
HOW KEDI CAN YOU BE ?
FUCK YOU LA PLEPUKI ! HARAPKAN BADAN AJE BESAR GEDABAK , KONEK KECIK KECOT SIUL !
YOUR PARENTS SEND YOU TO SCHOOL TO STUDY LA SIALSSS , NOT TO REMBAT PEOPLE SHOW TERROR ! WHY CANT YOU FIGHT IT OUT WITH HIM MAN TO MAN , ONE ON ONE ? HE STOOD OUT ON HIS OWN, WHILE YOU WERE THE ONE ASKING HELP
FROM YOUR OLDER FRIENDS. SO WHO'S THE COWARD NOW HUH ?! DUMB FATSO ! GO HOME , SUCK UR MFUCKING DICK UH SIOOOL !

@$^#*^*$#@^*(&#^$%^#$%^&*($^&*()&^ ! okay so now im reaaaal mad, im so damn sick of bloody cowards.

Thursday , 13 March O8.

Goooood morning lil earthlings !

Time check now is 12.18 pm.

& I was practically dragged out of bed by my little brother as he wants me to help him take a glass of milk for him. Now , i couldnt even sleep back due to the noise created

by my younger siblings. Bising siaoooo, satu-satu terpekik telolong. Fikir funfair ke apa ? Haiyoooo !

Okay, firstly - i would like to say thanks to all my lovely peeps who showed care for me whenever i'm at my losing end. Nope, i aint searching for sympathy. Im just looking for a shoulder to cry on. Thankyou to everyone who's been that shoulder for me. (:

But dont worry peeps. Im totally going to be fine.

Ezah, Fifie & Ipin - Thanks for cheering me up. About what happened , do keep it to urself. Syaee - No one knows me better than u. Thanks for being there for me.

Nira & Afifah - Even though the both of u dont know the story , u guys were still there for me whenever i'm down. I will tell u both what really happened. Soon, i promise.

Hmmm secondly , sorry for not posting anything up for the past ??? days . Haha. Cant believe its already Thursday now. No matter how boriiing 2008's Hols can be , time can still move reaaaal fast huh ? Minus the weekends , there will only be 2 days left to school reopen. & i havent even touch any one of my homework yet.

Hehe. My latest colour craze - ORANGE ! (:

White is now soooooo yesterday. Haha.

Oh anyway, i went to layer my hair last Tuesday yaw ~

Not much difference in length but , susah maoot siot

if want to tie. And my ponytail will look reallyyy weird.

And and , i really regretted telling the hairdresser to cut

my fringe ! Tu bodo peh makcik potong pendek sgt.

Grrrrrr ~

But nehmind , i'll try editting it on Monday later.

Buruk pun buruk laa eyyyy. ((:

Okay then peeps. Hopefully your March Hols were much better than mine.

Tcaaaare y'all ~

10 March O8 .

i have to admit ,

im disappointed . and im jealous .

it hurts so much ,

i dont even know how to stop crying .

thanks Ipin for trying to cheer me up .

i had a few laughs though , ily bro . (:

& a big thankyou to DeeluhNinie for telling me .

the both of you made me see the truth .

thankyou so much girls . (((:

8 March . ❤

It was on the 8th March 2007 , when we first met.
You gave me a smile that i could never forget.
Soon after , you gave me a kind of love that i never had.
You knew the right words to make me smile.
Boy , u're the only one i've loved all this while.


Never had i wanted separation to happen between us.
I could only accept it , if you think that was what best for you.
There wasnt a need for you to tell me the reason why u're leaving.
Because if leaving me would make you happy , then its better if you just leave.


Tell me , what can i do ?
Im crazy for you but there's no place to take this affection.
What can i say ?
Ive tried so hard to look away but my heart still wants you.
Why did you let this love go by ?
Why must you feed another flame and let this first one die ?


Only God knows how hard it was for me trying to forget you.
To be seeing you almost everyday ,
to be hearing your voice & your laughter everywhere near me.
To be walking around , only to find that wherever i go held memories of you and me together.
How would there possibly ever a time when my mind is free from you ?


From you , i learned that no one is responsible to make someone else happy.
I can choose to be happy or sad , & whichever i choose is what i will get.
I've got a shelter over my head and i've got great friends ,
So why should i choose to be sad ?

But you aint my happiness.
I dont need you to make me happy.
Instead , i need you to motivate me in life.
You're the reason I still keep coming to school.
Without you , how am i supposed to go on ?


Couples are celebrating their 1 year of together-ness.
While i'm here celebrating my 1 year of loneliness.
Truthfully , i was never mad at what u've did.
And even if i was at first ,
Boy , i miss you more than i'm mad.


Its one year now.
And even if you're out there happy with someone else ,
I'll still be waiting . (:

O7MarchO8 ;

Cross Countrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !

i woke up with a big smile plastered on my face.

i was practically humming all the way , from the moment i

get out of bed till i was out of the house.

i dont even know what made me felt so happy.

my stomach still has the cramps but i didnt complain.

i dont even give a heck to the doctor's sick leave.

mum was nagging , advising me not to attend X country.

but hey , the only thing on my mind was to run and

cheer on for 3E5.

how could i not go ?

so , met Fiefie at her void deck.

thanks to her Ibu for the hotdog roll.

it was soooo sedap.

then since i was darn late and Nira was

already waiting for me at the interchange ,

i chiong-ed and left Fiefie behind with Didi.

met Nira , took the train to Chinese Garden.

met Syaee and Afifah , then walked all the way into

Japanese Garden.

tiring oi ~

somemore i wore the wrong shoe ,

a slip-on shoe that will just come off if i run fast.

Bloooody Fucktard , right ?

urrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhh !

but nehmind , if i really have the determination ,

it doesnt matter of the shoe right ?

so we ran , gave our best andddddd ..

our positions ;

syaee - 25th

afifah - 31st

diy - 45th

nira - 60th

it wasnt that bad , infact it was pretty good to know that i reached my aim to be among the Top 50 ! (:

but looking back , Afifah must have felt very disappointed.

she was at the 2nd position in 2006's X country .

but its okay Afah , u know u've done ur best.

we will continue to try harder next time , alright ?

Syae was the first among us , she even managed to

beat Afifah. oh wow , im so proud of you honey :D

Nira also improved - her timing was better , compared to the

one in 2006. well done gf ! (:

and alsooooooo ,

3E5 won the Best Class Award for this year's X countryyyyyyy !

Mdm Fadilah was soo proud of us that she even told over

the mike to the whole school that 3E5 is her PE class.

how cool was that ? :DDDDDDD

yeahh 3E5 , we did it !

(i contributed too u know , by being among the Top 50)

HAHAHAHA ! ((((:

Japanese Garden was sooo beautiful

that i really felt like i was in Japan the moment i stepped in.

ooooooooooooooooohoooooooo ~

pictures of my and my girls having fun . ((:

Diy ! with her 755 !

Syaee - All ready for the camera .

Nira - Emo-ing la siak , Tkmo kacauuuu .

Afah & Diy - Jokesters sewel sesat . ((:

Show 'em our white teeth yaww ~

after X country , we went back Batok. ate at Westmall , then lepak-ed at 188.

Afah wearing Naz's long pants.

sachok uh gituk ! pheeeeeweet ~

even though HotStuff wasnt there for the X country ,

having you girls was enough.

thankyou JokeSters for 7 March 2008 . ((:

& to all students , happy holidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyysssss ! :D

Thursday , O6MarchO8 .

today i woke up slightlyyy late .

hehe . due to the very fine cold weather ,

getting out of bed seemed impossible .

i rmbr waking up at 6.45 am ,

slept and woke up at 9 ,

then fell back into a deeeeep sleep again till 2.

i used menses cramps as an excuse for not going school .

and suprisingly , mummy didnt nag for the lame

excuse i gave her .

woke up and texted Nira ,

& u guys know what ?

Ms Dianah took all my textbooks that were

under my desk .

plepuuuki kan ?

yea , i know .

sec 3 life just seems sooo weird .

oh dear God , please bring me back to 2007 .

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm . . . . .
now im waiting for Yunis to call me .
she wants to return back my grey blouse ,
then thinking of lepak-ing at Teck Whye .
she wants to jumpe seseorang . oooohoo ~
while waiting , im doing Maths Ace Learning taw !
goooodie girl eh Diy ?
hhhheeeeeeeee :D

ehhhhhh ! oooooooooooolalalaaaaa .

BBSS-ians ,

tomorrow X country right ?

some are excited ,

some are nervous ,

some dont even give a fucking

shit care to whats gonna happen

on the 7th march .

hahahahaha !

but whatever it is ,

dearest 3E5-ians ;

lets power up our energy to the fullest

for tomorrow aye ?

we're going to give our best and

make Mdm Fadilah proud , wont we ?

Afifah Miami - dont worry Hunk , i know u can

emerge as top 15 . just persist on and

dont ever give up .

Nira - dont underestimate urself girl . u've

got the spirit for this yr's X country . u can definitely

do it if u believe in urself ! we'll run together

alright ? & u can use me as a challenge

bait . amcm , set ?

Ipinurul - u two lovebirds are

the best ! im also praying hard for ur success

in X country tmr .

Maggie Nah - u are a great athlete .

u have the potential to beat the other girls out there.

dont waste it . (:

& to other BBSS-ians out there - we'll rock Japanese

Garden tmr , wont we ? but most importantly , rmb to

have fun y'all !

urghhhh , i myself dont even know if i

can run tmr .

ive been having these shitto cramps since

Monday .

thinking of seeing a doctor later

tonight because Mummy suspects i'm

having the syptoms of a somekind

weird illness .

oooooohoho scaryyy sia .

but no matter what ,

i'm still running tmr no matter what .

if Nira are having high spirits for tmr ,

why shouldnt i ?

uh oh ! there goes my call .

gtg now peeps , Yunis is alr on her way .

tooooooodles ~

hope u've enjoyed reading this post of mine .

& to people whose names mentioned in blue ,

rmb that i will always keep on cheering for you

guys . (:

BBSS ROCKS :D

Wednesday , O5MarchO8 .

woke up with a tummy ache today.

but still , got ready for school .

met Fie at bustop 187 ( she's early today :D ) .

walked to intc .

met gegerrrl at traffic light .

took bus , late for schoool .. as usual . haiyooooo .

didnt want to go for another detention cause ive

alr got one detention not done yet .

(give calculator sumore ! want do maths do what siaa .)

so decided to masuk sch at 8 o'clock , when the prefects

sume dah chiaoo .

its been a long time since i see ur smile ,

& ur laugh sounded much sincere than usual .

we walked together , but didnt utter a word to

each other .

why ?

am i not even a friend to you ?

school was pretty okaaay today .

Afifah never come sch - she is meditating for

X country .

siap dgn meditation sume kau ! LOL .

so it was left with Jokesters Diy and Nira .

recess with the usuals - Syaee and her 3T babes .

HAPPY 9 MONTHSARY ,

SYAEE MOLLIE & ZACHH NOLLIE ! (:

after school , skipped Ms Ng's "detention" .

kimekk da uat last min . hari ni buat sala ,

hari nie jgk sioool kene stay back .

aku ngn nira malas nk layan siak cikgu

sakit otak mcm kau .

instead , we went jamming with Caleb & gang .

Kenneth was great !

& so was Syafiqah !

the four of you could definitely make a perfect band . ((:

after that , slacked with Nira at 7 11 bustop .

wasted 30 mins there just to finish our chips .

then took 61 , went 620 .

Nira lepak , i went home . (:

& to Nira babyyy , u know my stories .

keep it to urself ok .

i'm starting to love you bebe .

this time , anybody bitches about u, i'll kill them ;D

& to syaee mollie , hope u enjoy today .

sighh , & syae , i wished u didnt tell me where

he was going .

i figured out the "friend" he is meeting .

im pretending i dont know a thing .

but im still smiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiling .

& hope you guys out there are toooooooooo !
:DDDDDDDDDDDD

29FebO8.

went Bukit Timah Nature Reserve to jog with Afifah Hunk. (:

we climbed .........,

we trekked , and we even got lost ....,

we also met our favourite friend . ((((:
*look at her tits.* heeee !

also .. Happy Birthday to Ezah's mummy .

mustve been reeeaal cool huh to be born on a Leap Year ? :DDDDDD